You can't stop the signal

There is an opening, a knowing unfolding in me. I don’t know why today’s the day. Why does something that I have heard/read/discussed many, many times in many different ways finally sink down into the depths of me today? Why does it suddenly become clear to me this Tuesday morning at 6 am while I am spooning with my lover and smelling the sweet warmth of his neck and listening to his soft breath as the soft grey light of morning slips in the window? Why, today, do I hear a big deep silence in my head followed by a few words remembered from a sci-fi movie: “You can’t stop the signal.”?

The signal is Love. The universe is Love. The whole point of everything is Love. What else could there be?

You can ignore it, disallow it, hide from it, squint at it through eyes clouded with anger or mistrust or fear, but it’s still there. We can get all up in our heads and try to think things through and reason things out and that’s all well and good, but we are not bodies that happen to have a soul residing inside them, we are souls hanging out in a physical body.

We are surrounded by love. It’s in the trees and the sky, in bird song and children’s laughter and the purr of a cat. It’s in the warmth of the sun and the mist of the rain. I can’t for the life of me today think why we forget this. How do we get so busy and focused on the details and the drama of our lives? Why do we get so small-minded that we can’t see the bigness of what is right in front of our collective noses?

Its 10:15 and so far, I’m still feeling the love. Jack and I had a great walk where we encountered three squirrels and a couple of cardinals. I made the best coffee ever this morning. My hair looks great and I haven’t even showered yet! And I don’t have to shower unless I want to.   

And I wonder: How long can this last? Can I maintain this feeling as I fold the laundry and make dinner? Can I remain open and trusting when my internet connection is down and I can’t post this amazing revelation? Will I fall asleep tonight safe in the arms of a benevolent Universe? And what about tomorrow? How strong will the signal be tomorrow when I wake up to my first day back at work after the summer?

Perhaps I need some bright pink, heart-shaped Post-it notes plastered all over the house, the car, the neighbourhood- reminding me in every moment to relax, and breathe, and stay open to the love.