How is this fair? I so rarely get sick, so why now? I’ve
been eating well and exercising, I’ve been wanting to come back to this festival
for 6 years. Why I am a sick now?
Think I would take care of myself, I allowed myself to sleep
in and miss the early morning Taize singing, and then headed for brunch at 11.
On my way I stopped at the store for some Echinacea and
some lozenges. I felt okay, ate some food, visited with a few people, so far so
good. So I headed to the sanctuary with Lesley for a brief meditation before
the first dancing workshop.
In that beautiful quiet space, we lit the candle and
centered ourselves. I breathed in, and out, enjoying the stillness,
appreciating the moment.
And then I was sneezing and snotting and I had to go back to
my B&B and crawl into bed. What the hell? Lesley suggested that maybe it
was some kind of purification, but I think she was just trying to make me feel
better.
I’m angry. Why now? I was planning on joining the festival
choir but my voice is definitely not up to it. I can’t dance if I am snotting
and sneezing. How can it be that I will spend the festival in my room or
walking alone where I can’t contaminate people?
I can’t help wondering what this all means? Is there some
cosmic mystery going on here? Is this some kind of spiritual lesson I should be
taking note of? Or did I just pick up some hitchhiking germs along the way?
The real Tracy is really disgruntled. This is NOT how I
pictured starting my week.
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